#I don’t know what’s wrong with me

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digital jolt
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Tired of being stuck as a boy, but that’s just how it is

vital zinc
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Gender dysphoria sucks...

For me, I have dysphoria in the sense that I want a completely gender neutral body, but that isn't 100% possible.

It sucks, it sucks so bad, but we can do what we can, and we can find people who will be accepting of us, even if it's just a few

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Also, just because we have gender dysphoria doesn't mean there's something inherently wrong with us, it just means we're a bit different than others. Not sure if that helps, but I felt like saying it

digital jolt
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I hate when I’m dysphoric

vital zinc
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median tulip
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For me, I don't struggle with not knowing who or what I am. I know I'm a guy, always have been, always will be. But it sucks. I like being a guy, it means I'm naturally stronger and I get more privilege. However, it leaves me sickened to see what atrocities are committed by guys every day. I personally have to go out of my way to avoid eye contact all the time. I see people look at me with my peripheral vision but I don't have the bravery to look back. I understand that they're probably just looking around but it's gotten to a point where I just keep my head down when I'm around women.

I have a friend who was accused of essay when in their freshman year. He didn't do it, FYI. I'm just scared of being seen as a creep like he was seen. When that happened to him, he lost tons of friends, and from what I can tell, came close to the end. I don't wanna be seen as a person who would actually do that. And in case you were wondering, there was zero evidence pointing towards him actually committing that and he has since swapped his sexuality. And guess what, I'm probably not really ace, but I don't feel attraction enough to consider myself hetero, homo, or bisexual. So I say I'm ace to make others feel more comfortable around me.

And basically, I protect myself by isolating myself and just do whatever I can to stop people from feeling uncomfortable. It just sucks to need to be like this just to get by because of idiots who ruin honest men's reputation by creating a stereotype that ruins lives.

And I'm not saying I wanna be trans or Nonbinary or Genderfluid. I just hate being a guy because of everyone else. So, even though I know that at heart I am a guy, I still detest it.