I don’t rlly know | Pridecord | Page 1

gloomy ibex Apr 11, 2026, 9:00 PM

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Ok, so I’m not super depressed or anything but I just need to explain something.

I feel like I’m not like other people (?) I guess. In any situation that’s sad, I don’t feel anything. Like genuinely. I have no reaction, like it’s a normal thing for me.

My mum had a ||miscarriage|| a few months ago and when she told me I didn’t feel anything. I just told her “ok”, and went right back to my stuff. But the thing is I really wanted a sibling, but I didn’t feel anything when I lost the sibling I was looking forward to.

It also happens in any other situation like funerals, mourning days etc etc.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I want it to stop.

simple arrow Apr 11, 2026, 9:04 PM

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I lost my stepdad, and this numbness feeling is actually normal. Granted, he was kind of a dick so I was torn on how to feel, but still

plain sundial Apr 11, 2026, 9:04 PM

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Emotional numbness, also known as emotional blunting, is a state where a person experiences a significant reduction in their ability to feel or express emotions. It can be a temporary reaction to stress or a chronic condition. Common causes include trauma, chronic stress, and burnout. Symptoms may include feeling detached from both joyful and painful experiences, difficulty connecting with others, and physical sensations of numbness or detachment from the body. Emotional numbness can be mistaken for depression, but it involves the absence of feelings altogether. It is a protective mechanism that can lead to behaviors with serious consequences if it persists

simple arrow Apr 11, 2026, 9:04 PM

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Now im not psychologist but I believe it stems from your mind protecting you by just numbing instead of feeling some intense emotion

plain sundial Apr 11, 2026, 9:04 PM

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copied... obviously...

simple arrow Apr 11, 2026, 9:04 PM

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ya what QT said basically

plain sundial Apr 11, 2026, 9:05 PM

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i suffer the same shit... from ptsd, from the military. you should talk to someone

simple arrow Apr 11, 2026, 9:05 PM

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yeah I agree.

gloomy ibex Apr 11, 2026, 9:16 PM

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I don’t rlly know who to talk to though that’s the thing

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I told my therapist to jump off a bridge because she was being too pushy

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And I’m just labelled as “too angry”

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And my mum is already going through shit with her toxic bf

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So I don’t wanna worry her more like “hey! I don’t feel anything in drastic situations!”

plain sundial Apr 11, 2026, 9:22 PM

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there is no such thing as "too angry" there is a reason and your therapist should lose their license. you should request someone different, and someone with maybe better experience with what you are dealing with and your age

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you are already talking to us... so technically its a start, and we are going to try to point you in the right direction, or at least i will.

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and i would have to assume there a reasons... even having to deal with your mom and her toxic relationships is traumatizing as a kid/teen.

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parents dont realize everything they say and do, reflects on the child. and little things that they think might have nothing to do with you, like a personal relationship can actually be quite traumatizing for a kid

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everything in your mental development stems from your upbringing

gloomy ibex Apr 11, 2026, 9:29 PM

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True true

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My mum thinks I’m still 5 but I’m not

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I know what she’s going through, I know what her relationship is like, and I don’t wanna stress her out about it all

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I feel like talking to people online is better because you can relate instead of a therapist going “I see” and “I understand”

plain sundial Apr 11, 2026, 9:31 PM

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my mom still thinks im 5... it will never change

gloomy ibex Apr 11, 2026, 9:32 PM

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But when I genuinely wanted to give up was when my mum took away my phone because she thought I was getting ||groomed||, even though I’m 17 and old enough to know what ||grooming|| is and how to avoid it.

I think that was the closest I’ve ever been to ||suicide||

plain sundial Apr 11, 2026, 9:32 PM

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there are things like talk therapy, group therapy, and shared experiences counseling and things you can look into to be with ppl that will understand you

gloomy ibex Apr 11, 2026, 9:32 PM

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That’s true thank you so much

plain sundial Apr 11, 2026, 9:33 PM

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well... how old were the ppl you were talking to?

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i mean, did she have a reason to suspect?

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give the woman a little bit of a break too sometimes, she is probably doing the best she knows how. again, we all learn from our parents. so think of how she had it too

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not giving any excuse to it... but sometimes there are actual reasons to things.

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she wants to protect you as well

gloomy ibex Apr 11, 2026, 9:35 PM

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I can confirm that the people I was talking to were my age (15-16-17), and she even knew that. I would know if they were old men/women, or if they were using a voice changer

plain sundial Apr 11, 2026, 9:36 PM

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exactly how would you know though?

gloomy ibex Apr 11, 2026, 9:36 PM

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We’ve shared faces, and we all reverse google searches them

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I can approve that they’re my age

plain sundial Apr 11, 2026, 9:36 PM

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technology is pretty grand and as long as you are face time calling/talking to ppl and are doing your due diligence then you are fine

gloomy ibex Apr 11, 2026, 9:37 PM

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Yea we talk and FaceTime all the time and I can confirm I know their faces and whatnot

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She ALSO knows this, as she’s walked in on me with a FaceTime call before with them

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And seemed completely chill with it

plain sundial Apr 11, 2026, 9:37 PM

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is she on drugs?

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lol, just kidding

gloomy ibex Apr 11, 2026, 9:37 PM

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lol

plain sundial Apr 11, 2026, 9:38 PM

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well, parents can be a pain in the ass.

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when you are 18 or older and able to do your own thing, then you can make the decision on how much you want to stay in contact with that

gloomy ibex Apr 11, 2026, 9:38 PM

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True true

plain sundial Apr 11, 2026, 9:38 PM

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for now, you kinda forced to just dal

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deal

gloomy ibex Apr 11, 2026, 9:39 PM

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I know but I find it very frustrating at times

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Because I’m trying my hardest to not stress her out

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But while I do that she’s stressing me out by doing stuff like taking away online friends who were my only support

plain sundial Apr 11, 2026, 9:39 PM

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well, that certainly is not your responsibility to not stress her out. that sounds more like a her problem

gloomy ibex Apr 11, 2026, 9:40 PM

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I can’t help it at all

plain sundial Apr 11, 2026, 9:40 PM

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i understand, and unfortunately that just kinda sux till you are able to leave home for yourself

gloomy ibex Apr 11, 2026, 9:40 PM

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I know :<

plain sundial Apr 11, 2026, 9:40 PM

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i would suggest when feeling frustrated, that you do something you love to calm down and take your mind off it

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whether its music, or art, or a book... something you enjoy doing when no one else is around

gloomy ibex Apr 11, 2026, 9:41 PM

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Ok thank you I will try

plain sundial Apr 11, 2026, 9:41 PM

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this will be a life line for the rest of your life

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take up crochet

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lol... be a 80 yo grandma at 17

gloomy ibex Apr 11, 2026, 9:41 PM

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Hahahaha lol

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I will

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Thanks for the help I really appreciate it

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