I'm stuck

[dusty kettle]

So, I've been out to my parents for a year or two now, maybe nearing 3 years. This, however, seems to have only caused problems. My parents have said hurtful things every time it's brought up since they doesn't understand. Most if not all of my siblings have been told, or at least know I experiece dysphoria, but none of them have done anything to help with that. My older sibling seems to not care enough, forgets, or is afraid or unsure of using my correct pronouns amongst my family. My younger siblings don't understand it at all.

I've been out but unable to use my correct pronouns amongst my family because no one here understands, and it feels like everytime it's brought up, I'm always the one put in pain. I'm too afraid to enforce it, though, because my family are the type of stubborn where if you enforce it, they dig their heels in deeper and refuse to move.

So I'm stuck. Can't ever talk about myself without getting hurt and am stuck being misgendered constantly.

[swift prairie]

sorry

maybe just move out if u want

[subtle bobcat]

Its hard on this economy

Try and get a job if you don't have one already. Its basically impossible to buy a house nowadays so try and get roomates to split rent

Once you're financially independent, you can live your life however you want

If this seems unrealistic, i am sorry, that's all i can think of

[swift prairie]

Yeah i get that im sorry if that didn't help

I just wont say anything to my about being bi she's a Christian

Alot of Christian people are toxic not all but some

[dusty kettle]

I appreciate your words, but I have no friends who live in my area, and I would feel uncomfortable rooming with someone I don't know.

I am trying to get a job, and I bet I'll just be misgendered all the time there, too. Whatever the case, I'm trying to get a job, been trying for a year and still haven't had much luck. I only finally have just an interview today (my first interview), and that's not even a guaranteed "You get the job". I'm so unprofessional and I stim a lot (rocking back and forth, rubbing my hands), which can be interpreted as nervousness or something, also I sometimes talk with my hands and everything, so I doubt they'll hire me

On top of that, I might see if I can go back to college, but because of my autism, I can't do full time job and part time college or vice versa without burning out quickly, so I need part time job and part time college, which will make it so I won't have enough to move out. Though I have considered living on campus, even if it puts me in debt that'll probably really stress me out because I didn't qualify for any of the scholarships that college made available

I do have a partner who might be able to help me out financially, but she has to get through college first to even consider that, which won't be done until 2028, and I wish I didn't have to be financially dependent on anyone else, too

[dusty kettle]

My parents are religious, though I wouldn't call them "toxic". They aren't intentionally trying to hurt me, they're trying to understand better or help me, but all it does is hurt and so far my explanation of myself hasn't got them to understand, even though I've been through this song a dance a million times.

I often just try to not talk about it, but sometimes they're the first to bring it up. Even just a slight mention of something can make them hyperfocus on it