I'm so tired. I feel like everything good in my life is way too temporary and like I'm not worthy of being happy.
My girlfriend of over a year broke up with me a couple months ago and it still hurts so much. I have almost exclusively mutual friends with her so I've been distancing myself from them as well in an attempt to avoid seeing her and making myself feel even worse than I already am, and I've also been biting myself a lot, mostly on my hands, but sometimes also my arms and I don't know if I should stop or not cause it calms me down a bit and also I started doing it a LOT more a week or two after we broke up cause I heard secondhand that she was admitted into the hospital after overdosing on benadryl. Oh god it makes me sick just typing it
#I don't know where to go from here
supple marsh
And I've been doing horribly at school and I've been consistently missing my homework and I've thought about killing myself more times than I can count, and being trans in the us really doesn't help at ALL. I'm constantly scared that the government is gonna come after me cause I'm trans and also I'm constantly so disphoric about my body and all the efforts I make to fix it are just erased within the day and my parents are putting so much stress on me and I'm just. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like whatever I do is futile and that I'll never survive until adulthood. Sorry for the long rant. I have nobody to talk to about this stuff and I needed to get everything off my chest. Advice is welcome but not required
dark token
Hey, I don’t feel amazing right this second but know that I’m here for you if you need me
I just wanted to let you know before I forget to say it. I feel like garbage right this moment but I promise I’ll be here if you need someone, a friend or someone to vent to or whatever else you may need
You aren’t alone. You’re worthy of being happy, and someone leaving isn’t the end of everything
dark token
And I've been doing horribly at school and I've been consistently missing my hom...
Let me also respond to a message so you see I responded through an @
dark token
I just wanted to let you know before I forget to say it. I feel like garbage rig...
Like, a little later ofc
When I feel in shape to help directly