stark sierra
(Male, 17 Y.O.) I've found out that i'm asexual and demiromantic and I live in the sociality where no knows what asexual people are. I sometimes argue with my parents, cuz they want me to have girlfriend. They call me lazy and weird, because mostly I sit in home, don't go to outside usually, drawing and listening to music. How I can find my girlfriend? I don't even have any of my friends! When I say to my parents that i'm too young to find my love, they say that they used to met up in university when they used to be teens. Although, I still loss in argues against most of the people, cause when I reply - argues can be louder, when I don't say anything - they will start discussing me. I perceive their words as threatening, as if I should live like a normal person. Their words may become louder, and I may suffer a nervous breakdown and can't normally say
Before I used to dream when I had the opportunity to build a life where no one would ever demand dirty themes from me, would not pressure me, would not ask stupid questions, but later lost interest and it is unlikely that such a thing will happen
I'm started to be anxious and stressed for not having friends (parents don't understand me and classmates hate me and laugh at me) and I will become “like everyone else”, and then everything that I have built now will collapse. I am also scared about asking help to someone, so yeah. I know that there's no professional specialists, but I've wanted to know how at least make my life better for a bit. Thanks in advance if you answer and understand me
quartz wraith