#Not the best Introduction, but an honest one.

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craggy plover
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Hi. I have been struggling with some pretty awful loneliness for...a long time. You don't know me, and i don't know you. 99% of you realistically never will and, in my mind, 100% of you will have no interest in ever speaking to me...and i get that...i really do. At the very, very young age of 4, i developed, what i now know, is an alter. I am undiagnosed with osdd-1b, which essentially, from what i have read, means that my mind had to shatter itself into pieces to keep me alive...and 21 out of 25 years of my life, i have had this other "thing" in my mind that has left me mired in self-hatred so deep that it transcended into being a majority of who i was...and still am, unfortunately...which makes my identity as who i am as a person unclear to me. i am trying to work on it...but depression, anxiety and a neglectful, isolated childhood where i had to be my own siblings' parent, has made that very hard...i feel like i am not a person, unworthy of any of your time. I want it to be VERY clear I AM NOT DANGEROUS. What i deal with is not what media makes alters or "alternate personalities" into, in my experience, it is not a monster that externalizes, it internalizes. The only person that it can or will ever harm, is me. So, i hope, if any of you at all read this, if nothing else, took a moment to try to understand, even if you may never really.

Thank you pridecore, for providing me a place to put this and, if anyone stuck around until the end, especially thank you for thinking of me, if only for a moment.

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If i stick around this server, this won't be my only post here...so maybe, just maybe, one of you will give my words that brief moment and it may not seem like much...but if that happens, it will mean a lot to me.

dry quest
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I cant think of anything so uh here's a poem about why you're goated written by me

pulsar marsh
# craggy plover Hi. I have been struggling with some pretty awful loneliness for...a long time. ...

I struggle with depression and anxiety too (not in the same way you do) but I want to let you know that I can sort of relate. As for figuring out who you are, that is ultimately up to you but it can be nice to have people along the way to help guide you and support you in whatever way you end up. Unfortunately I can't give very much advice for the situation you're in, but what I CAN tell you is that you aren't alone, you are a person, and you are worthy of my time! If you ever need to vent or just want someone to talk to I'm here 😊 I truly hope that this helps you in some way 💗

dry quest
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25 years of being a solider
21 years of fighting an invisible battle,
Alas he's still here
And that is something to be proud of,
If you ever think you lack worth
Or you have no support
I'll be there holding your back
Remember you are awesome.

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That's my best attempt at one

proven halo
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Night skies are black,
The fog is thick.
I've got your back,
Through thick and thin.

If you're ever alone,
Or you need help.
Your life, you own,
And you have a voice to yell.

No matter how bad,
Your life may seem.
And no matter how sad,
You'll ALWAYS gleam.

People don't own you,
You make your own choices.
Don't be forced to love, you choose,
No matter those voices.

You're loved by those you cannot see,
No matter what you believe.
What you know of think of me,
I will let you perceive.

Just know I'm here,
And I'm not going away.
So as I leave this poem to tears,
Have a good life, and live an even better way.

             -AJthePoeteer
dry quest
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Man I just got shown up so hard 😭

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But yeah you're awesome sauce

craggy plover
dry quest
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Peak