I'm sad and tired

[empty yew]

TW // Loss of familiars and pets / sadness / DID / ghosting

Living with DID it's very sad, because all the horribles things I lived and live...
That's not the point here. Let's talk about yesterday, I lost a familiar close to me because of COPD (cronic obstructive pulmonar desease) and i lost my pet too, I feel mostly depressed rn, it was all shocking. Besides that someone that I really considered close to me, when I explain that I have DID, he just... Ghost me... Like my mental health was nothing, like I am broken for that... Yes, maybe I'm broken and fragmented, but still i'm a human being, I still feel, I still try to live even if I'm disabled for my mental issues.
I still try to live, but I guess not everyone apreciated that determination on me, trynna not gave up, and live to see the tomorrow, I want to see my goals closer, i wanna get them and enjoy them, even if that dreams are not possible... I just wanna live...

[ruby pawn]

then live

do whatever u wanne do

[halcyon cape]

You gotta relax and tell yourself everything is gonna be okay

[wary wolf]

I myself deal with osdd, though i do not experience the same intensity that DID can carry. Our systems may be different, but i am sure they often have made us feel the same...now that aside for the time being. A loss of an animal is always painful but always remember that you gave them the best life you could, because you did, they loved you maybe more than you loved them. And someone ghosting you for showing all of yourself, that is very cruel and i am very sorry that happened. Just know that it was very brave of you to reveal your multiplicity and anyone who can not handle all of you, is not someone who should be in your life, even if you really wanted them to be. You are right, the fact that your mind created that system IS a testament to your strength. So please, understand you are not shards of broken glass in a pillowcase, your system is a mosaic---and you? You are a cathedral.