Hey people, so basically, I am gonna write a few things that I absolutely hate, first of all, I am wondering if my dad is toxic or something, because like, if there is a chat or smth, he always acts like he knows better, and if I dare say otherwise, he screms at me, whilst im highly sensitive, so it instantly makes me cry, and then he looks at me like I told him I killed someone or somthing... Also when I came out he reacted in a way that I absolutely hate... And he knows that mentally im a mess and that I am sensitive and so on.... Next thing, I hate school, to a point it might be a phobia or something, like, school stresses me out, to a point where a psychologist recomended me to get a fidget (which I did get) but that did not change a lot of thing... I also have dysmorphophobia, so basically I absolutely hate what I look like and if someone tells me I look good, I will just think he is lying.... so thats pretty much it... But also, like, if I am stressed out [not the usual one, real stress (like when my dad screams at me, which is quite frequent not gonna lie :( ], well I just feel like I am gonna vomit.. I swear, I just feel like I am too much, I just want a normal life in this messed up world, I kinda sometimes even want to just go away and never come back, the only person in my house that I like and that I know cares about me is my mom, but she doesen't really take actions in her own hands, so if my dad does something wrong, she wont call him out for said thing... and I cant even really rely on my sis and bro because they live hours away (my sis is a 4 hour drive away, and my bro a 2 hour drive)
#I have had enough..
livid swallow
Also another fact, my mental health has been hell for like, the past 5 months or something