im so done, what is wrong with me

[storm zodiac]

i cant keep a relationship for shit. and i mean romantic. im so desperate, genuinely so desperate. i want the closeness of a relationship but fate just has to throw it in my face that i cant keep a relationship or that im ugly and no one bloody wants me. im so done. im 15 and never been so lonely. i liked being single, but after getting in my first relationship, i just thought that it was right. yeah, i never saw myself getting married or having kids, but the closeness of a relationship was just so amazing. i want that, but no matter what, i always fuck it up some how: i realise my feelings are platonic, i overreact, i have an episode. its always me, and this time, i dont know the reason. he wont tell me, which is valid, its his choice to tell me or not, but holy fuck, does it bother me.

i sound so bloody petty, its probably not that deep is it ?

[glacial wren]

I have felt the same way. I’m 17, and both of my “real” relationships have ended because of me.

I don’t mean to say that to make it about me, but because I understand and wanted to relate. I’m sorry you’ve had bad luck, if I’m being honest it’s just the nature of relationships at our age.

I was fine until around my last relationship, I understand how you feel. I know it’s not the same, but lll gladly be a platonic friend to talk to if you feel lonely; god knows without my friends I’d never have made it this far.

Nothing is wrong with you, either. Like I said, at our age relationships just don’t last. You have to be immensely lucky to find your person at an age like this during an era where everyone our age doesn’t want something mature and serious.