I feel really suicidal lately.not sure why. My original plan was waiting till all my friends were stable enough so they wouldn't follow soon after. Idk if I can make it till then.i have been pushing my emotions down for years but it's getting harder to do so. I'm scared to just snap at someone for no reason. I've been comforting everyone stopping suicides.idk how much longer I'll last.
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vernal rover
hallow pollen
Please don't. I know we don't know eachother, but I've been in a similar place. Just a few hours ago even. Life hurts. It breaks you. But there's always going to be one reason, one person, one thing that makes it worth staying. I don't know what your thing is, but if you're reaching out now, it's there. You don't need to keep overworking yourself. I'm sure if you told one of your friends, they'd do the same thing for you.
If you feel like you're at the end of the line, you just need to find someone to tie on a new string. Find another way. Be kind to yourself. I don't care if you do or don't deserve it, do something fun. Play a game, paint your nails, anything that makes you happy and safe
And share that happiness with someone. Maybe it could help your friends too, and you wouldn't have to burn out in the process