im so done with everything

[dim prawn]

i don’t understand why i’m always left out. i always try to be the person making sure others don’t feel left out but either way im still left out. im always walking behind my friend group that i once called perfect. everyone has someone to talk to or someone they would prefer to talk to over me. i feel so useless in group settings. i never believed someone when they told me i was their first choice bc i know that it’s not true. everyone always leaves me behind and barely anyone waits for me. why can’t i just find a good friend group for once. am i the problem? do i annoy ppl to much? i’m seriously trying so hard to be a good friend but i guess im not worth enough to be one. why do i have to be in this situation in every single group i join. i just want to feel happy for longer than a few days or a week… why do these things always happen to me..

[small cedar]

1: why would it be your fault you stated before you were a good friend they should never have a problem with that because you are a good person from what I’m seeing

2: you don’t have to have friends to be yourself maybe time away from people is good to find your own self and your own Happiness instead of looking for it In friend groups ik i do because we all need time to find our true selves

3: find something you can do by yourself that you didn’t know you would actually love or do something you always loved doing

4: maybe you can ask people about it because seems to me you aren’t the problem they are and if they can’t accept you for whoever you are (idk what happened for them to treat you like that you might wanna have a talk with them) and trust me you seem like a very sweet person (ima say it again for reassurance)