broken vector
Mentions of suicide, self harm
So
My friend’s dad just killed himself
Around the date I cut again after a week of not doing it.
I wasn’t even clean, I know I’m in an active relapse
But hearing that he’s dead now makes it so much worse
They found the body this morning
Now her family has to drive to the station to identify him
And I’m left not knowing what to do because I’m not close enough to her to just comfort her without her telling me that he killed himself
But then again I don’t want her to be alone
I’ve been cutting myself again and again because I feel guilty about the date I chose to relapse
In a way I think that I made him kill himself with my bad vibes
I feel like it’s all my fault even though I never even spoke to him
It feels horrible
thorny siren
merry cedar