tw drug mention // my bf is taking my bennys away and im scared

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ive been trying to quit gradually and have actually been doing rlly well but last week i had a huge relapse and my bf wants to take my bennys away,,, genuienly idk what todo because i dont want to quit all together and it rlly hurts because the way he worded it made it seem like i made no progress at all,,, "i understand uve been trying to stop slowly but i rlly dont feel like u r, i just think u need a complete stop." ik hes never dealt with addiction of any kind before but it actually is so awful to quit cold turkey on thay stuff i rlly dont think i can do it without going back to the harder shit i was doing at 14 2 yearsago,,, im scared. i dont want to live like that agaim it was terribek and i dont want him to think i cant be fixed or recover because ivebeen trying so hard for him

[silent knot]

Mutt, I hate to break it to you, but there's no point in expressing vain regrets for what cannot be recovered or undone. Take my word for this: "Water under the bridge." If you burn your bridges, you do something that forces you to continue with a particular course of action and makes it impossible for you to return to an earlier situation or relationship. Staying with your bf not only leads to big consequences, but also you will withstand the ravages of time. That's going from bad to worse. How tragic, isn't it? Remember, you and he had a fraught relationship, and it would be much harder to change his mind if he refuses to pay attention to you at all. Breaking up with a boyfriend is not the end; you can get another boyfriend who's way more protective and benevolent than what you had before. I suggest you seek a good-natured helper who sincerely believes in your potential; the true strength lies within your heart, for you are not forsaken permanently. Struggle flourished into shared progress, but you and your good-natured helper needed to have a potential alliance and nurture beautiful boundaries to blossom like a fragrant rose.

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we didnt break up,,,??

[silent knot]

I mean, let me clarify myself once: I am not saying you are breaking up with a boyfriend. Instead, I'm saying that a breakup is not the end. My bad.

[silent knot]

I would like to enlighten you. Get ready, you are the redeemed.
A shiver passes through you as unseen fingers dance across your skin. They remember the violence you inflicted on them. And yet they don't return it.
I offer you absolution, and you take my hand in yours.
You felt the pain you caused another, and you were willing to sacrifice everything you thought was you to set me free.
Without sin, there is no redemption.

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uhhh what is bro yapping about,,,?????