Can't do this no more TW: SH TALK

[ember nebula]

I hate the fact that i get overwhelmed so easily
and then i start to cry?
oh boy here comes the water works
makes me feel even more like shit
and then when i calm down
i cant help but think that im being annoying
and that i'm just a burden
i'm just a little baby burden
then i feel worse

Not to mention I was venting to one of my friends in a server and someone they knew said "Who cares about you"

||I relapsed in the next hour||... thats how weak and fragile I am.

Can't do this no more TW: SH TALK

[tight spindle]

Hey everyone’s different! Believe me I get you so much. Things that one person will say to me and my friend will make me breakdown while my friend is fine. You’re not weak, even if it feels that way. Maybe block that person who was rude to you for a little bit, people who add extra stress to your life don’t make things better. I think emotional resilience is something that takes time to build up, but you’re not weak, you just feel your emotions stronger. Hope this helps, and believe me I know how you’re feeling.

[amber oak]

First of all, "identity is a major problem in the modern world. a lot of people feel like it's one of the most important things that shouldn't be questioned, and considering their 'identity' to be something related to their sexuality or gender. it's a gap that people are seeking to fill, but can really only be filled properly with something. Since we all have an outward personality that we show to the external world, but behind that mask is our shadow. Secondly. struggling with overthinking, anxiety, paranoia, ect. is a natural response for humanity especially animals who became courageous after grappling with doubt. However, if it's hard to correlate these issues, then it's better to realize that correlation does not imply causation. You need good-natured helper who's capable of encouraging you figuring this stuff out, regardless of your self-doubt, fear or perhaps regret. Either way, response matters more than resolution. In the same way, situations matters more than contradictions. Thirdlly, in order to understand our identity/personalities, you must struggle. Every problem in life is interpersonal. We define fairness, righteousness, and wrongdoing based on our own experiences, and others do the same.

[amber oak]

Fourthly, according to afterskool: "We all have an outward personality that we show to the external world, but behind that mask is our shadow. If you are Unaware of your shadow side, you will project it onto the world in the form of blame, judgement, hate, shame, guilt and resentment. When you explore your shadow, you understand that all the things that irritate you are simply keys that unlock something suppressed within you. For example, if someone's success bothers you, maybe it's not their success that is upsetting you, but rather it's the fact that you gave up on your dreams and stopped believing in yourself. Maybe it stems from the way your parents never encouraged you. Maybe that stems from the fact that your parents never got any encouragement from their parents. As Carl Jung famously said, "Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate."

[amber oak]

Lastly, Overall, it would be much more beneficial to find friends who can aptly build bridges of honesty between you and them. Quote, unquote, "Honesty is the best policy." On top of that, wallowing in sadness is an act of expressing vulnerability honestly. True strength lies in confronting uncertainty, failure, and pain head-on, not alone, but with support from those who care for you.

[amber oak]

I would like to enlighten you. Get ready, you are the redeemed.
A shiver passes through you as unseen fingers dance across your skin. They remember the violence you inflicted on them. And yet they don't return it.
I offer you absolution, and you take my hand in yours.
You felt the pain you caused another, and you were willing to sacrifice everything you thought was you to set me free.
Without sin, there is no redemption.