#School apathy and expectations ig?

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Hey. I don't usually vent like this in public forums or anything but I felt really down tonight and came across a tiktok that kinda sparked up more upsetting feelings about it. I've been doing online school for maybe 1 1/2 to 2 ish years now (quit in-person school mid freshman year) and I'm only 10 percent done with the entire thing, like the entire curriculum from start to certificate finish and there's a deadline. So much money and expectations have gone to waste but I can't even push myself to do any of the work, and I genuinely dreaded going to school in person. I never could really connect with anyone and my anxiety and self-perception has always been shit. My dad always says he's proud of how smart I am, how I'm a good student, and to keep up the good work with my classes, that I'll be the one to actually graduate highschool with a diploma. I'm scared of disappointing him but school feels useless and pointless at this point. I used to be an all A's top student who earned awards and always pushed to go beyond for validation. I don't know what happened to me. I'm genuinely thinking of dropping out but I don't wanna imagine what my unmedicated bipolar dad's reaction would be to his only present kid failing like he did. I feel like a failure but I just can't bring myself to care about school anymore. I just wanna know that I'm not alone in this feeling, or just a brief convo about anything, really. I feel like my life's becoming the feeling of "you're a big girl now. No more daddy's little girl."

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i know exactly how you feel. i also do online school and have trouble putting in effort in school. and that last sentence hits pretty hard. i don’t know how i can help you since i’m in the same boat, but know you’re not alone 🫂

severe dirge
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Thank you twinnie :(( I hate school so much. I haven't made any progress in fucking months

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