i’m freaking tired man I’m freaking

[dusky egret]

I thought I would have a nice dinner with my wife tonight. Nope we got hacked so bad to the point where we just fucking left without even eating, I’m sorry I didn’t like being a boy. I’m sorry.

sorry, I meant to say harassed not hacked. Fuck

i’m so over it

[sharp merlin]

It's just disgusting how women like you get treated. Honestly, what don't people get about being transgender, it's not a new thing it's been around for hundreds of years. And yet you still get harassed for being true to yourself and who you are. It's mind-blowing to me. I'm so sorry this happened to you, I hope you and your wife are okay, and do NOT let this discourage you from having a great rest of your night.

[near horizon]

so true

[dusky egret]

my wife is doing better than me. She’s more used to it not me. I try to pretend like I don’t let people get to me like that, but I do makes me wonder if I’m even meant to be a woman considering how many times I’ve got denied for HRT. My wife got it first try but she hasn’t transitioned yet cause she doesn’t wanna make me upset, but I’m holding her back.

she’s trying to find somewhere else for us to go eat, but the night and my mood is already fucked

[sharp merlin]

That's sweet of your wife. And she isn't being held back by you, she's doing it out of love for you. It may not make sense to you, but to her it's a way of saying that she really cares and it's a journey for the both of you.

[sharp merlin]

Also I hope you'll find somewhere and get your mood lifted

[rigid sail]

Damn hope your better after that

[dusky egret]

I won’t be better tonight. Shit lingers because my brain is already fucked in it. It’s just a fucking lot.

[sharp merlin]

Maybe in the next upcoming days something will overrider this feeling that you have currently, with a feeling of bliss and happiness.

[rigid sail]

Sorry for you

[dusky egret]

I don’t know

shit has been so hard lately

[sharp merlin]

I don't mind listening

[rigid sail]

Same

[sharp merlin]

Of course if you want to tell me you can

No pressure no nothing

[rigid sail]

Wish you the best

[dusky egret]

it’s I am disabled because I about 10 years ago, I was a stupid ass kid and decided to climb an unintended ladder, and fell off of a roof and severely damaged my spine to the point where I basically disabled myself, and it’s never gonna heal correctly and essentially my parents have protective custody over me because I’m disabled and there’s jack shit I can do to remove it and that’s stopping me from transitioning and that’s stopping me from living my life with my wife. They were not happy about that but I told them they were not stopping me from that. And I have no fucking family left. My family was already crumbling because this part is dark because my nephew took advantage of me and my family and got into a big ass fight and everybody just went their separate ways and I know it’s better off, but it hurts and later in life, I’m probably gonna end up in a wheelchair because of my back injury it’s just been a lot on my mind lately

[rigid sail]

Damn..

[sharp merlin]

First of all, I'm sorry about what disgustingly happened with you and your nephew. Second, everything that's happened to you is horrid, but there is light at the end of it. I mean you have a wonderful wife, and soon enough you will be able to transition into the beautiful girl you were always meant to be. The future holds many secrets, medical discoveries and surgeries happen all the time, hopefully one of these days one of those could help your spine. Also with your parents, fuck them, don't listen to them unless it's pure support. They should have no right with telling you what you can't do with your own body.

I only wish the best for you, and nothing less. You seem like a wonderful person that doesn't take bullshit.