I fucked up

[cobalt jetty]

Oh god

I don't know what came over me

I was so tired of constantly seeing Muslims say that the story of lot was about homosexuality, that homosexuality was a sin.

Then I watched a video and got hope. I collected evidence and proof. Then I went to my dad and asked if we could talk.

I thought I could convince him.

We ended up getting into a screaming match. And I think I've lost all faith. I'm myself, in my religion, in my family, in my sexuality.

God I'm terrified. What is he gonna do? He's the least progressive of our family, I should never have gone to him.

Fuck fuck fuck I can't stop myself from crying

I've been holding it back for so long and now he might know

He might refuse to send me abroad, or to college

And if that happens, I think I'll actually || kill myself ||

I wish I wasn't a lesbian, I wish I wasn't a Muslim, and most importantly, I wish I wasn't stupid