my family problems got worse

[shadow obsidian]

tw: ||achohol||, ||one of my parents cheating i guess?||

so uhm

afetr my mom found out i have an account in discord everything got so bad

she beats me up almost everyday, takes and checks my phone, my classmates' bullying got heavier and recently i found out that my brother is alchoholic and my dad is cheating on my mom

i just can't take it anymore

yesterday i almost ||committed|| but i climbed on the tree and loosed the noose

i'm having really really bad hallutinations of my family members yelling at me(mostly about my mom)

she won't give me peace even in my dreams

in them she insults me and in the previous dream she killed me

this sounds absurd even for me like a teenage girl is making up problems for her character

[patent nebula]

Do you have any relatives you can trust

or a school counsoler/teacher

[heavy thistle]

I think you need to contact CPS, because this sounds like abuse, and noone deserves that situation

[shadow obsidian]

doing that is really risky

my mom has very good reputation and who would believe me?

[heavy thistle]

if you are in physical danger, they will believe you, it is quite literally their job to make sure you're safe

[shadow obsidian]

how do i prove i am?

[heavy thistle]

well calling CPS and explaining the situation is the best bet, like, basically what you said in this post would be a great start. you could possibly see if another adult in your life that you trust, i.e a friend's parents would be happy to look after you, and bring some pajamas in your school bag. call while at that other person's house, and don't tell your mom you're going, just go with the friend from school if you can. that other adult can help look after you while you tell cps your situation and get something figured out. I really hope you can get out of that situation, and if you think you want to do another||suicide attempt|| CALL BEYOND BLUE. I really hope you get out, sending love 🫶 ❤️

[shadow obsidian]

thank you so much

i'll...try to get a friend

[heavy thistle]

🫶

[runic vessel]

Oh honey 🙁
Hfy.
I love you!