#Vent dont mind it

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terse apex
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I feel like noone cares about and i don't know how to prove opposite of that without being miserable

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I feel numb, like I'm just a robot following same algorithm every day

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I don't know what to say in a conversation i always feel detached from company of my friends because of it

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I dont know if i ever find love or be loved by someone

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I want someone to listen to my complaints but im afraid to open up to anyone so they don't abuse my weaknesses or laugh at me

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How to understand if im acepted in a friend group or they are just politely tolerate my presence?

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I know im not ok but i don't know how to get better

robust plaza
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that sounds really heavy. Feeling numb and stuck like a robot all the time… i get why u feel detached from friends and scared to open up. honestly, it makes sense—u don’t wanna give anyone ammo to laugh at or hurt u. If people choose to hang with u, talk to u, include u, it usually means they actually want you there, not just tolerate you.
You’re not broken for feeling like this, and you’re not alone in it. i know it sucks, but u don’t have to figure it all out rn, and it doesn’t have to stay like this forever. u deserve people who actually care and listen, and u deserve to feel better. im here for u.

terse apex
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Thank you for a kind word

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I say sao because I had multiple people i thought they were my friends but after little inconvenience they left me and forgot about my existance even though I didn't blocked them or hid/privated my social media accounts

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But they still choose to forgot me

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I tried to not being asshole, but somehow i still failed to be good friend or at least person you want to talk to time to time

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And current people i talk to is only my dnd groups, two groups to be exactly

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And im afraid that adter campaign ends they will disappear to

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I don't communicate with them outside of dnd sessions and i dont know how to start

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They play Helldivers 2 in-between sessions but my pc cant run that game, and honestly i dont love games like that

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But they don't want to play games i like to play and i dont know what to do to gain their attention

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I feel like a failed personality sometimes

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I know that no one obligated to talk to me and listen my chit-chat but sometimes I'm envious of that who have a lot of friends

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I crave deep bonding relationship but i failing to build one and i dont know what I am doing wrong

terse apex
robust plaza
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losing people u once trusted is hard, ik, I get why u fear and overthink before communicating, you're not failed personality here, they were, everyone makes mistakes and u realised people aren't always how u expect them to be, that's a good thing u learned there even tho it hurts

robust plaza
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I'm here for u, I'll try my best to be a good friend if you're up the the relationship

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it hurts when people fade away from u slowly, I'll try my best to not let that happen

terse apex
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Im ok if people decide to move away from me it hurts if they do it without any explanation or anything like that

robust plaza
terse apex
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And left me thinking if they are alive pr jot because im from Ukraine and there are posibility that they are dead from ballistic missile

robust plaza
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I get it, I'm not sure about the conditions of Ukraine or anything but leaving without warning sure hurts, you're not wrong for feeling this way

terse apex
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Let all things in your life be alright

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Im going to delete this thread later

robust plaza
terse apex
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I don't want to vent to friends im talking with rn because im afraid it'll scare them away or worse, make me look miserable and desperate for attention in their eye

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Places like this help me to calm down a lot

robust plaza
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terse apex
robust plaza
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(I'm sorry for the late reply my phone died)

terse apex
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dusk sparrow
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yeah they may be tolerating you, it sounds like your not confident in yourself which is bad already you seem dependant on others which is also bad. nobody will listen, people dont care, you need to find some confidence, find new friends and deal with it.

pearl echo
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BUT also, you can try something like betterhelp

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