I wasn’t born normally (TW: suicidal thoughts)

[prime granite]

I don’t even enjoy venting
I just do this because everyone fucking tells me to do it
All my life I’ve been told to do it and it has backfired

Fuck everyone who got me here
Seriously fuck every single dipshit who ruined my life to this degree

I wish I died in that transplant
Yk how many times I’ve wished that

That I died earlier

At 7 years old

My life has been ruined ever since I was 7 fucking years old
Yk how early that is

Ever since I was born I’ve been fucked
If you wanna consider the entire heart defect like that

And nobody can handle hearing about my problems
no! Of course not!
Because it isn’t working out how they want
I don’t follow their advice and suddenly turn into the happiest person on earth
Or they don’t believe me when I say what they’re recommending doesn’t work

Shut up and exist
All I’ve been told
Without it directly being said

Fuck all of this

Fuck everyone who got me here

Everyone who used me
Everyone who was abusive towards me
Everyone who just treated me like nothing or like garbage

Because now because of it I’m at this point

I have begged till the cows came home
For all the help I can get
I’ve searched far and wide for someone I can speak to about my problems
And look where it has gotten me
In a worse god damn place

Everyone is no amount of help whatsoever

Everyone is a piece of shit

Everybody is

[keen inlet]

If you are being abused that's one of the things with which calling the police will hopefully help