#Numbness..

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lucid finch
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I feel so numb, disconnected. I'm tempted, but I don't have anything to do it with and I'm a month clean, I want that to get further so I haven't. But I've been feeling so light headed much more often now, whenever I stand up, my body hurts often because of the way I sleep, I hate and disappoint myself whenever I can't meet my own expectations, I feel like I haven't talked to my girlfriend enough recently. I feel disconnected from everything and everyone, I haven't prayed recently, I have offered recently, I haven't done any devotional acts recently, I just feel like I should do better, that I need to do better.

last lark
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hm, sorry for replying this late btw. lemme start out by saying, u do not have to do better, nor be better. u are still alive and clean as far as i know, so if u just keep doing what ur doing rn, then it will get better, i promise u <333. also, a good place to pick up, is with ur gf, just tell her how u feel and why u havent been as actively speaking to her recently, she should understand, dw. another great place to start, is by trying to fix the way u sleep, u didnt give that many details, but it seems to me like there could be two things wrong, first one being; ur sleep schedule. second one being; the position u sleep in. the second one is probably the easiest to change, but if u have difficulties falling asleep, then u could start out by trying some music, tea, warm milk etc. and if that doesnt work, then u can always get some melatonin to get urself to calm down. sorry if it sounds like im saying this is easy, it isnt ik. just know that there is people who love u in this world, and also people who care for u, like me for example. have a good day/night and if ur sleeping, then sleep well. i love u, add me if u need to talk <333

last lark
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sorry for the long ass message...

lucid finch
last lark