#Genuinely Exhausted

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bright pulsar
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Just some basic stuff for how I'll refer to people because I feel rude saying real names :

Red Velvet - Nonbinary, Lesbian
Lemon - Girlflux, Panromantic
Confetti - Straight (my family member)
(Yay, they're cake flavors!)

So, I woke up today feeling good! Confetti was at work in the morning so I just got ready and went to school.
And then I had to do PE. PE is my first period, and I already don't tend to like PE, but it's especially dreadful because of Red Velvet. Red Velvet has been my "friend" for a while, but they make me so uncomfortable. To keep it short, I was an ||SA|| victim multiple times, so physical touch makes me severely nervous and fight or flight. But Red Velvet CONSTANTLY touches me. They don't even ASK for a hug, they just come up from behind and do it. They touch my stuff, grab my things and make iffy jokes about their OCs getting ||SA'ed|| on C. ai?? So basically, I do anything to try and get them to stop. I even asked my friend Lemon, (who Red used to have a crush on) to help me make them stop and it didn't work, once they literally held them back until they got free and JUMPED on me. When I 'playfully' made a comment about their constant touch, they said smth along the lines of :
"Well, touch is my love language, so deal with it."
WHAT? I literally wanted to cry (which I never do in public) because that was genuinely so insensitive. I don't even know what made them say that???
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So eventually I get in the car to go home and Confetti, who continuously goes through my phone and reads my texts without my permission, starts calling my friends "ugly" and insists that we're all lesbians because she knows nothing about pride besides slurs, Gay, Lesbian, Trans and Pan. Which she then uses while talking about how I apparently want to do inappropriate things with women because I'm a lesbian (I'm an Aroace ||SA|| victim btw, hi! :>) and (I believe purposefully) calls Red Velvet an "ebee, eby, eb" (everything but enby) and says the F slur and Trans slur while saying how I "love the smell of fish" and "want to lick the AFAB organs. I'm literally so tired of all of this, I just want to be treated like a human being. I literally habitually started looking at the floor to check shadows and see if someone is behind me so I don't get touched. I'm tired.
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wispy cloud
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Try and stand up in some way. Is red (I’m not typing red velvet everytime it’s rather annoying) even to you worth the friendship?
Also is confetti a parent or sibling.

wispy cloud
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Also as a fellow who has endured ||abuse|| at other’s hands your flight or fight response I completely normal. Your mind does not ever want to be in such a situation ever again. The fact you’ve been forced into such a dumb fucking situation is an affront and failure on multiple people’s parts who aren’t you.

bright pulsar
wispy cloud
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You seem smart enough to not get into a situation where a parent would be helpful so I thus see no issues in forcing passwords to access certain apps.

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Also the fact your mother is talking in such a disgusting way to you is an affront to civility. That’s shit I would advise on you seeing if you can get some form of governmental assistance in forcing them to screw off.