#I have a small issue

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opal juniper
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I find myself in a bit of a problem regarding whether this particular issue should be categorized under the mental heath, but I’ve decided to share it. For quite some time now, I’ve noticed an odd pattern in my emotions. It seems that I derive a sense of happiness and satisfaction from seeing the sadness or brokenness in others. This realization makes me smile and feel a strange sense of well-being, which I find quite unsettling. On the other hand, when I try to help someone or make an effort to be kind and compassionate, I just feel anger. This anger comes from the fact that my actions didn’t result in making them sad, which is contrary to the emotional response I seem to crave. It’s a bit strange and confusing, and I’m not entirely sure if this falls under the category I’ve chosen. This is a personal issue that I’ve been dealing with for years, and I’m still trying to understand why I feel this way.

loud comet
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Have you tried taking therapy on this? Or maybe open therapy with a close individual

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Your emotions may branch out towards what your describing as a “sadistic” nature

opal juniper
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Ok I haven’t tried therapy I’ll try it to see if it helps thank you

loud comet
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Warning this is quite long:

I’ve had a friend who struggled in the exact same way you’re describing. My best recommendation/advice is a couple of things:

  1. Try to motivate yourself on change so these feelings don’t become hurtful patterns to others
  2. Try to limit as much people abusive media as you can. Examples would be violent movies, shows, books
  3. Treat this behavior as a simple addiction. Never shame yourself or restrict yourself from other things to make you happy. Like all addictions, change happens through time, dedication, and discipline against cravings
  4. Never bring yourself down. Never forget that you have as much human worth as any other person on this planet and are not worthless in any way. Another thing is bringing yourself down may cause you to become more susceptible to cravings to make others sad
  5. One thing you can try doing is focusing your joy onto other things like different hobbies, relaxing, or working towards a goal of somekind. Even just trying to enjoy simple things like warm water in a shower or the scenery of a walk can take your mind off of cravings and urges
  6. Don’t think to yourself that you’re restricting urges and instead tell yourself it’s a small something to overcome as an obstacle in your life

TLDR:
don’t give up
You have great human worth
Treat it as an addiction to overcome

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Wow that was long

loud comet
opal juniper