I'm done *contains talks of ||suicide||*

[narrow jasper]

I've been looking for a girlfriend for so long, and I thought I finally met someone who I could be happy with. Someone who finally loved me. But apparently I was only ever just a friend to her. I can't take this anymore, I've only ever had two girls interested in me, and one was depressed and the other had a boyfriend. I'm nobody's first choice, not even for people who are struggling. I thought she was different. I thought I mattered to her. But I was wrong. No girl would ever pick me, nobody wants me. Nobody would miss me if I disappeared, they don't even miss me when I'm alive. I can't do anything right. No girl likes me, I'm a monster. It's time I finally see in myself what they see in me. A loser, a monster, a nightmare. I'm a disease. I mean nothing to anyone, I never have and I never will. I can't take this anymore. This is too painful. I don't want to continue anymore. I know I have to, but I don't want to. I have no one to live for anymore, and I mean nothing to anyone. I hate myself. I just want to die 😭😭😭 I was an idiot to think anyone could ever love me.

[narrow kettle]

Hey listen maybe try looking for someone who you think / know would accept you but if that doesn't work id recommend being really confident

@narrow jasper

[narrow jasper]

It doesn't matter. There's nobody left. And confidence always just leads to my heart getting broken

[surreal bear]

lwk with that mentallity, no shit nobody wnats u. i dont mean this in a rude way, but genuienly ive learned that it is harder to be attracted to someone so negative and so hateful towards themselves, not jst from personal experience, but from what ive seen around me. and i feel like saying "nobody loves me, i should die," u should say, "nobody loves me, i should work harder on myself." even if its hard to work on urself n get help, i can promise u that at least seeming more positive and confdent helps alot.

and im also personally not a person who believes EVERYONE can hate ONE PERSON, n js because u cant find a gf doesnt mean everybody hates u. u have family n friends who care for u, even if they dont show it well

fuck i mean im a stranger on the internet n i care enough to at least try to help :3

[narrow jasper]

I was doing so well before this, idk, I had self love just a couple weeks ago. But this just hit me so hard, and with other stuff that's happened in my life. Idk, it just all feels so pointless. I'll try and work more on myself though. Thank you

[surreal bear]

ur welcome gangalang, lwk the best advice i could give is focusing on urself a lil bit. if u focus on doing sumn with 1 goal in mind, itll be harder when u cant get to that 1 goal right away. idk u very well but when i have the time id gen be chill w talking w u!! u can frq me whenever, n ill trymy best to respond !!! (no promises tho cuz my phone is messing up n im in the youth program at my school,)

[narrow jasper]

Its ok. I think atm, I just want to focus on myself a bit. Get back into a better mindset.

[surreal bear]

well good luck, n remember im always here :3