I feel like I might have adhd or add or something. Growing up I always felt "out of the ordinary" even after I figured out my sexualities and gender identity I still feel like there's a part of me that I don't full know yet. I've never been diagnosed with anything or even went to go get diagnosed so I'm not really sure how I'm supposed to do it. I don't have a good health insurance either or make much money and also where I live they don't really have that much care for people who have things like that. I know that because my brother has adhd and autism but, he's still not in therapy yet and we have been struggling to get him in therapy and on the right medicine. We are still struggling with that atm as well. Over the years his Autism has gotten worse and it's too the point where he starts to ||hit|| people when he's mad. Idk what to do. Even the school keeps telling us to get him into therapy LIKE WE TRIED!! The only places that will work on him are over 2 hours away and we don't have a good schedule to be doing that once a week or the money! He's been once and it didn't work either he's been at one for over 10 days and they were supposed to find what medicines work on him but they didn't. Not to mention the fact that they literally stole my brothers clothes from him that my mom sent down there for him to be able to have. We never got them back.
#idk if this needs a tw but tw: adhd or other disorders, being hit
pulsar reef
Anyways the reason why I think I might have adhd or something is because growing up I have always only been able to make a few friends and those friends that I did have also had adhd. I've asked them what their symptoms are before because I wanted to know more about it at the time but, looking back at it I feel like I could relate. I have a hard time focusing on anything or having any motivation to do anything. I also get very anxious around lots of people like food places or even on buses. I find that sometimes I want to just sit in pure silence and if I hear any bit of noise I get overwhelmed and my brain is immediately screaming at me to shut it off and I become very shakey like I might explode or snap at any moment without meaning to. I struggle to pay attention when it comes to watching movies or shows with others as well Idk if that's a part of it but I find myself getting bored very easily and if it is a show I like I find myself "obsessed" with one of the characters for a while. I'm also very organized and I find that it's easier for me to have motivation if everything is organized and done in a certain order. Sometimes I forget to do basic stuff as well unless I'm reminded to do it like brushing my teeth, showering, washing dishes and etc. I recently found an app that reminds me of what I need to do at certain times daily. It's a fun app as well that has an animal you can customize. I find that I can't use apps unless its fun. If it's not fun and doesn't have a mini game to it I won't be able to focus on it.