I don't know how long I'll stay sane.

[cinder mauve]

Trigger warning: suicide mentions, and self harm.
My mental health is going downhill fast. I can't fucking stand it anymore. I want to die . Someone will say "Okay, another non-binary or transgender person is going to kill themselves". I don't care. I want to disappear. If someone says that it will be better:I LIVE IN A FUCKING NIGHTMARE. There's a war in my country and I hear explosions every day. I don't know when I'll do it. Maybe tomorrow, maybe today. I'm so sorry,so sorry for this. I just hate my life. Again, I'm so sorry. Also please don't ban me. Sorry for venting too much.

[sudden loom]

OMG I GUESS EVERY TRANSGENDER OR NON-BINARY ARE DEPRESSED TOO
Erm sorry.
So, ik the worst sentence ever is 'I understand'
No you don't.
So I'm not gonna tell you that.
Have you think to consult?
Or just talk about it (with your family, your friend?)
Apperently it can help.
Not sure.
I see what you mean when you say that you live a nightmare.
I think every lgbt people will 'understand'.
But everyone has their own pain or their own fear, you know.
Idk what I can actually do but if you want to talk with someone about that my DM's are open, love.

[cinder mauve]

I mean, I live in war zone. It's pure nightmare too. Want to escape this in any way.

Also,my mom doesn't care about my mental health. She made it a lot worse.

[sudden loom]

Oh waw that's hard, I'm sorry. I mean, I can't understand lol but that's pretty not cool (oh fuck Idk what to say and I can't say, that's the non-native english's problem).
If you allow me, where do you live?

[sudden loom]

Oh my god the 'idc parent'...
My phobia.
You know, sometimes, the parents can't understand so they make like nothing's happening (the deny). So just fuck them and live your life.
Honestly Idk I don't know what to tell you but You have my support and if there is a problem or anything, you can always send me a message, I'll be there (maybe not in the minute because of the jet lag but I'll answer you when I can, promise)

[cinder mauve]

Sorry for late response. I live in Ukraine. There's a trouble with electricity.

[cinder mauve]

I'm living with my family because of my disability.

[sudden loom]

That's okay dw.
Oh okay, I'm sorry for you to live in a war zone. I can't imagine. I'm so sorry..
Oh okay

[sudden loom]

Oh, I'm sorry again

If you allow me (again) to ask you something, what's your disability?

If you don't want to talk about it that's okay just say me 'shut the fuck up bitch' and I'll never talk about it again

[cinder mauve]

Autism spectrum disorder