umbral obsidian
Soo... I'm out to my parents as trans for over a year now...
My ignorant mother does not want to understand how hurtful it is when she's misgendering me.. and when there are other people around they're picking up on her misgendering me and then my mood drops, I get pissed off, I clam up, I leave, I don't show up etc. Results are? I get mad at mom for just being in the room and no matter how often I try to tell her it hurts she doesn't want to understand and just keeps doing it and when I say it she's like "oh but I'm trying" NO MOM YOU ARE NOT 🤬 IT HAS BEEN OVER A YEAR WHAT THE FUCK???
So.. the problem is that mom kept me small all the time like a whole 18 years and I can't speak up for myself 🥲 results are? My mental health is decreasing because I swallow it down and hate myself for not speaking up... how can I find courage to say no I'm not a girl don't listen to her I am a guy... the worst thing is that people hear my chosen name that is clearly masculine and still go with she/her pronouns 🤦♂️
I know it'll change when I get T but... the way is rough and I'm scared to take it even tho I really really really want it 🙁
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