#I lost my best friends...

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surreal oyster
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I lost my best friends... I lost my wishes and my dreams. My memories hurt because they aren't with me anymore.

Every time I look at the art I work for them. I wanted to be loved... And they no longer give me that... I'm sad... I'm hurt... Someone please comfort me... Is it wrong to desire friendship anymore... Everything is falling apart... Please come back to me...

I know what I'm doing is desperate... But, it genuinely feels hopeless... I'm sad... No one is going to spend time with me anymore...

lament osprey
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How'd you lose them?

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@surreal oyster

surreal oyster
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Two of them were my best friends. One of them, I can't be compatible because of our personalities being different. Two was because I keep breaking promises, even though I'm improving... Or at least I think

And our friendship is broken now...

lament osprey
surreal oyster
lament osprey
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The personality issue isn't something you can fix or I wouldn't recommend it

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surreal oyster
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They are the reason I wanna live, and I want to visit them

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And now, it's not happening anytime soon

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Nobody reciprocates me, and it really hurts now. Nobody checks upon me, and nobody invites me...

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I give them my love but I don't get loved back

lament osprey
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They've probably moved on

surreal oyster
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Its worth thinking about finding a new group of people

small rampart
surreal oyster
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But, I don't think I will ever reciprocated back

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small rampart
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Even my ex girlfriend didn’t really reciprocate love and she asked ME out.

I know that isn’t necessarily what you mean, I just wanted you to know I feel similar and you aren’t alone

lament osprey
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Just need to find the right person

small rampart
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And you will find friends too

surreal oyster
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I have friends, but they aren't exactly that active

small rampart
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I can and will gladly be your friend if that’s what you need

small rampart
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As in I’ll be here if you ever need me

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Not as an insult to myself LOL

surreal oyster
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It's just that it's hard to reach out to me and I don't get to hangout with friends much

surreal oyster
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surreal oyster
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It's just hard

small rampart
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I’m here for you from now on should you ever need anything,

Even if you don’t NEED anything, I’m here and I’ll talk and be here for you

small rampart
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surreal oyster
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Because memories matter a lot to me, and I really need someone to reciprocate my thoughts (platonically)

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surreal oyster
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It's hard to think about them, while they aren't here with me anymore

small rampart
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I’m sure we have similarities

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And I’m sure we’ve done through some similar stuff probably

surreal oyster
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I made art for them (technically commissioned)

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Me and my friend made them

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They usually gift me games

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Technically that only happened twice

small rampart
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lol, my buddy gifted me 2 games at random

surreal oyster
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And I like playing VR chat with them

small rampart
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Well, he gifted me one and he bought a server for another

surreal oyster
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But, it's never going to happen again

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surreal oyster
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Just about to turn 18 this year

lament osprey
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Dayum unc

surreal oyster
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I'm not really prepared

lament osprey
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Anyway

surreal oyster
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small rampart
small rampart
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Even if I’m younger by like a year doesn’t mean I don’t know stuff lol

lament osprey
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Look forward to making new friends and memories

surreal oyster
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I know that

small rampart
lament osprey
small rampart
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Maybe it’d help us both to try to remind each other to be positive?

surreal oyster
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I just feel like all my memories about them. It hurts, and I didn't get to spend time with them more

lament osprey
small rampart
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It helps me a lot, maybe it can help you if I do the same?

lament osprey
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At least you could make those memories

surreal oyster
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I want someone to protect me actually

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surreal oyster
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That's why I'm so attached to them, so I could just hope that I can get away from my mess

surreal oyster
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Also I apologize if it’s overwhelming for me to talk while potato does

surreal oyster
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surreal oyster
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It's just not so pleasant

lament osprey
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Physically ?

surreal oyster
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I keep giving them gifts and hoping that they can reciprocate with me

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But that never happened and it hurts

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I didn't get anything memorable at Christmas, and that really hurt me

surreal oyster
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surreal oyster
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lament osprey
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You dont deserve thst

surreal oyster
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But that never happened

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surreal oyster
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I just can't get what I want

small rampart
surreal oyster
small rampart
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A friendship and relationship both require reciprocation or it’s not gonna work and it’s not healthy

surreal oyster
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small rampart
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Sorry I sent it before I finished on accident

surreal oyster
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Definitely

small rampart
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Both are two way streets

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You can’t have one person out effort in and the other not

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It just isn’t healthy

surreal oyster
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That's what I don't want to happen

small rampart
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I wish more people knew that, it’s sad that some folks don’t get educated in this kind of stuff

lament osprey
surreal oyster
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I prefer talking to older people

small rampart
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Idk if they’re even comfortable with me since I’m 17

lament osprey
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Shi mb

small rampart
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No it’s okay

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surreal oyster
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I honestly don't know where to put my wants anymore

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It's clear that it's never going to get fulfilled

small rampart
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I’ve been trying to hint that I’d like to provide those things for you, I’ll just say it outright.

If you need someone to reciprocate your thoughts (platonically like you said), then I’m here.

If you want anything, I’m here. I’ll play games with you and stuff, and I won’t feel forced because I love to play stuff with other people

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Whatever you need, I’ll help, that’s what I’m offering

surreal oyster
small rampart
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But no, I’m here, I’m here for you from now on and I mean that

surreal oyster
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Thank you for noticing me

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surreal oyster
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That's all I ever needed to hear

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I ever wanted

small rampart
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I’m here for you 🫂

surreal oyster
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I need time with my thoughts... Thank you so much

small rampart
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Or I can help you put them together like a puzzle, I don’t mind

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I’m here, and don’t let anxiety tell you I’m not later

surreal oyster
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Sorry just my tears

small rampart
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I know and it’s okay

surreal oyster
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I just wanted to be noticed. when I was loving them, nobody loved me back. And it really hurts

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They didn't give me back love

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And that really hurt my mind and my thoughts

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