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south pewter Dec 30, 2025, 1:14 PM

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my friends have started to stop talking to me, most didnt even acknowlegde my bday (christmas eve) or wish me a happy christmans, now imma be spending new years alone, my mum was the only family memeber to remember my bday, and noone in my family wished me a happy christmas

I feel like everyone is leaving me and im getting really scared bc my paranoia and hallucinations have been getting worse and i dont even have anyone to comfort me, I dont feel safe sleeping anymore, I dont wanna sleep, I dont wanna leave my bed either

Im scared
also srry if this was explained weird, Ive been barely sleeping for abt a week and the sleep Ive gotten has been super restless

inner terrace Dec 30, 2025, 2:00 PM

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I'm sorry everybody forgot your bday, happy late Christmas and birthday! Do you perhaps take medication to stop these hallucinations? You don't have to spend Christmas alone, you can text friends or even, put some music to maybe feel a bit festive!

south pewter Dec 30, 2025, 2:01 PM

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inner terrace I'm sorry everybody forgot your bday, happy late Christmas and birthday! Do you ...

dont have meds

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my friends were all busy on christmas

inner terrace Dec 30, 2025, 2:12 PM

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south pewter dont have meds

Have you told anyone you get these hallucinations or that you are paranoid? Maybe your mother or you can go take a session to get meds

south pewter Dec 30, 2025, 2:13 PM

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inner terrace Have you told anyone you get these hallucinations or that you are paranoid? Mayb...

isnt safe for me to talk to any family, theyre abusive
I have talked to multiple psychiatrists abt this but they havent prescribed me any meds :c

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I think its bc my answers dont really line up each time bc I have extremely bad memory (can only remember a few days of my life) and I also feel a compulsion to lie when talking to doctors for some reason

inner terrace Dec 30, 2025, 2:14 PM

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What about talking to friends?

south pewter Dec 30, 2025, 2:15 PM

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inner terrace What about talking to friends?

have few of those left and they take days to respond

inner terrace Dec 30, 2025, 2:15 PM

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south pewter I think its bc my answers dont really line up each time bc I have extremely bad ...

Try to take something like a distress toy or something to help you calm down when you're talking to doctors, that must help

south pewter Dec 30, 2025, 2:17 PM

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inner terrace Try to take something like a distress toy or something to help you calm down whe...

nah, they usually provide fidgits and similar things, Ive just had a bad experience of a doctor revealing stuff I said to my mum, which lead to being in danger when she told my family (Id talked abt their abusive behaviour)

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so now I avoid giving doctors the truth in case they tell my mum

inner terrace Dec 30, 2025, 2:19 PM

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Hm, have you thought of.. Telling maybe... An ai? It sounds crazy but sometimes they give you the comfort you need.

south pewter Dec 30, 2025, 2:20 PM

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inner terrace Hm, have you thought of.. Telling maybe... An ai? It sounds crazy but sometimes ...

no, they use your chats to train themselves, anything you tell them is not safe

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and even if it isnt its still stored by the company most of the time

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and I dont feel safe with that, bc I dont have the ability to remove it

inner terrace Dec 30, 2025, 2:21 PM

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Okay, what about journaling? I usually write down my struggles and worries when I'm sad or angry. Just keep your journal between your clothes or somewhere you know nobody would touch

south pewter Dec 30, 2025, 2:22 PM

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inner terrace Okay, what about journaling? I usually write down my struggles and worries when ...

no, then what if my mum found the journal and read it, cant risk that

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then my family knows and can use it to hurt me

inner terrace Dec 30, 2025, 2:23 PM

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It's complicated, I see. What about music? Sometimes music helps you express your emotions and thoughts

south pewter Dec 30, 2025, 2:24 PM

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inner terrace It's complicated, I see. What about music? Sometimes music helps you express you...

yeah i listen to music, but Im forced to only do it through headphones (mum will yell at me if im too loud, and I wanna avoid her learning anything abt me), I also wanna play it but I cant bc my mum would get mad abt the noise and shed hear me playing, which then means she hears my self expression

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im not safe while I live at home

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oh no

inner terrace Dec 30, 2025, 2:27 PM

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(Depending of your instrument) what about you go somewhere calm outside to play it? Nobody can tell you to stop because it's your choice. Like.... A park that is not so crowded

inner terrace Dec 30, 2025, 2:27 PM

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south pewter oh no

Is something wrong?

south pewter Dec 30, 2025, 2:27 PM

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its 1:30am and I still have things im meant to do

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like the dishes, im meant to do those every night

inner terrace Dec 30, 2025, 2:28 PM

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Oh damn, try to take deep breaths then do them to do them in a good mood?

south pewter Dec 30, 2025, 2:28 PM

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inner terrace Oh damn, try to take deep breaths then do them to do them in a good mood?

is too late, shed be woken up by the sound :c

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I should sleep soon

inner terrace Dec 30, 2025, 2:28 PM

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south pewter is too late, shed be woken up by the sound :c

Wake up early perhaps?

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Maybe wash your face, lay down on your bed, doing nothing for some minutes then sleep

south pewter Dec 30, 2025, 2:30 PM

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inner terrace Wake up early perhaps?

she wakes up at like 5 or 6, I cant wake up before that

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im just gonna sleep and worry abt it tmr

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Im too tired to care anymore

inner terrace Dec 30, 2025, 2:31 PM

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Sleep well, feel free to text me if you need help/need to talk

south pewter Dec 30, 2025, 3:21 PM

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scared

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i think i heard someone outside my window

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too dark, cant see

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scared

inner terrace Dec 30, 2025, 3:34 PM

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It's okay, you'll be fine.

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Now that I think about it, what about you write your worries in your phone/PC notes?

south pewter Dec 30, 2025, 3:41 PM

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inner terrace Now that I think about it, what about you write your worries in your phone/PC no...

maybe

inner terrace Dec 30, 2025, 3:41 PM

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I really hope that helps you

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