things have been so hard for me lately and i just want to commit. My friends (probably) hate me and i've got no one to talk to. Not only that but my best friend recently committed so no, i cant talk to her about it. Oh and also im starting to lose hope, i used to be like full of hope and kept going but now? I don't. I can't do this anymore.
#i want to commit
agile barn
i sometimes wish someone cared about me
I understand that this can be really painful but maybe try repeating good affirmations in your mind. That builds self love and confidence. Then just go away from people who are toxic to u , etc.
I believe it is hard for you (especially if your parents hate you) but try going to different meeting and stuff where you can meet new people - such as book clubs etc.
Good luck, I think you can do this!