I’m done

[zinc obsidian]

I’m done not much to say I wouldn’t go out of my way to die but I don’t care if it happens I don’t care about life I don’t care about the good the bad or the ugly I don’t care about emotions of myself or other people around my passing I do hope there sorrow fades quick but I’m tired of it all just living there isn’t any joy to it expect hate and I don’t like that they says life is full of wonders but I haven’t seen one my relationship is in the tank on my end not my partners end who thinks everything is fine with me when in fact he might be single soon for one way or another more focused on passing as I don’t care anymore he will get over it my family and friends will get over it as everyone does I will be forgotten and that’s ok I’m just tired and if that means crying in an empty room or died then so be it the only way I’m happy is through roses colored lenses from something I rather not bring up but other the that I’m not happy and haven’t been happy for many years or my life as I never had a single week not even a single day I haven’t thought about wishing my life was over. Thank you for listening and taking the time to read the rantings of a pathetic excuse of a man , god bless( or another phrase like it) and I pray you don’t share the same emotions of hopelessness and helplessness

[civic hedge]

You are no such thing as a “pathetic excuse of a man”, depression can occur to everyone, even if you can’t see it. I get that you think that your friends and so will get over it and forget about you, but seriously, they wont. They’ll very likely be crying for days to weeks on end about you, feeling guilty that they didn’t know. You may not be able to see the good in life, but I want you to atleast try finding something beautiful to life for. Maybe consider getting a pet, like a cat, they’ll want affection and give you affection back which could partially help you out of this. Even if you don’t want to, it’s okay to ask for help, whether its venting to someone, or going to therapy, I really do believe you can make it through this period of darkness.
Remember the phrase; “Always keep yourself pointed toward sunshine, and shadows will fall behind you.”