spiraling kinda lol

[spark shale]

so about 2 months ago i fucked smth up and although yea it was my fault uh my abandonment issues had a very bad time and then . its been two months and i was ready to talk to someone again for the first time since but the guy who accidentally triggered my abandonment issues is also around and i feel sick

i fucked things up and thats my fault and it always in but fuck can the feeling of not deserving to exist please go away

can i please feel like im not too much for once in my life

i feel like an asshole for feeling this way

i havent sung in over two months

[fair thunder]

All feelings are valid and you’re allowed to have them

[fair thunder]

Yeah, I see my ex girlfriend around school and it breaks my heart every time tbh, so I understand that

[spark shale]

yeah but I think there's a difference because we were never actually together and I have no right to feel physically nauseous seeing him

also who the fuck goes mute for two months over a man

[fair thunder]

And that’s fine as well because we all have different feelings

[fair thunder]

It doesn’t matter who would, it isn’t about that

Your feelings and reactions are no less valid simply because they’re different than another’s

[spark shale]

JK WE GOOD I TALKED TO HIM HE DOESNT HATE ME YAYYYY