Pain and suffering

[sharp nacelle]

"Oh..* was the only thing I uttered as realization struck, she stopped loving me years ago, she simply pretended the past 3 years. She was so quick to blame, to be upset with me, to brake up with me. Maybe I am as pathetic as everyone says, coming back to her again and again, 5 times exactly, it's quite pathetic looking back at it. I always knew but I refused to believe it, wanting to feel truly loved, not wanting to be alone again, I ignored all the red flags, molded myself to be perfect in her eyes yet here I lay in bed, holding back a wave of tears as the numbness I felt for years finally dissolved, and now, I feel every single thing I couldn't feel before, all at once, overwhelming. Making it hard to breathe as I have to pretend nothing is wrong

[hard ruin]

I can understand this. May I say, you’re extremely well spoken? This comes to me as very articulate, do you write at all?

I ask because often times, writing helps me cope. I write my feelings, I write what I want.

I’ll write things I hate, then rip it up and chuck it in the trash.

I’ve personally had very few relationships, but I can still give advice I’ve learned through the years watching others in relationships and understanding the ins and outs that way

[sharp nacelle]

I don't write often but I like to rp with people sometimes though most times I use ai (don't judge it helps me not be bored) I very much appreciate the compliments, I do often write how I feel, just in a small notebook

[hard ruin]

That’s great then, if you ever need someone to talk to I can try my best to help understand your feelings and process them