for some reason I have genuine happiness during the day, I feel happy I smile etc. but at night I just get really sad. I have a good reason, but I don't really understand if I'm just faking it or not. I have a small issue with my self harm problems, only one person knows that I do that and that is my bsf Georgia. its quite confusing. I also have a truckload of passive suicidal thoughts. its driving me absolutely crazy someone please help ;-;
#Am I faking it? TW: self harm, suicide
queen linden
minor jewel
You're not exactly faking it, depression is.. a lot. As someone who also thinks they have depression, I can still feel happiness. I just feel it less often. Also, about your self harm/suicidal thoughts, I get that. My brain will respond to just about anything like that. For example, when I get overwhelmed I go into my room, then I either hit myself on something or cut myself on something. At the same time I'll be imagining myself going farther and dying. It's kinda annoying tbh. But if anything, I at least don't think you are. Self harm isn't the first thing some brains resort to. And passive suicidal thoughts happen to me on and off.