So I’m in a particular pickle right now. I’m in my dad’s home for the holidays, so I’m safe as of now and everything’s good but I can’t help but think of what’s waiting for me. My little brother, he is bigger than me, and stronger than me and weaponed. ||He drugs me with laced weed|| and ||beats me with a wooden bat||. He also states he doesn’t care about me and calls me fat and ugly on the daily, being disgusted to be around me, and says me being trans is “disgusting”. Not to mention, my mom is neglectful and doesn’t feed us some nights. She thinks anything I do, even if I really need medical attention (i have asthma) is attention seeking and she laughs or yells at me, and goes back to what she was doing. My stepdad is the same way, he yells at me and doesn’t pay attention to me. He’s very condescending and his whole aura is very…eugh. So it’s a horrible household. The cards are in my hand tho, my dad is trying to help me but the issue is, I can’t leave till I graduate. Im starting a self paced program with 150 hours or so worth of work. If I can work my ASS off and everything, I could graduate in like March. That’s great, but what then? My stepmom doesn’t even like me, she ||abused|| me for 13 years and she says all the time “theres a reason we kicked you out” as if she actually kicked me out (she did not, it was my ignorant decision to move over there). I’m so lost and so annoyed. I need to find a way to get out of that situation, move somewhere until I can get into a living program at 18. That’s in the cards and in the works but I don’t know how serious they’re takin me. I’m 17 and I’m worried about my damn life here. Reporting it would ruin my chances at life so I’m just rotting, losing weight, motivation, and energy to deal with any bs that comes my way. I also just got out of a ||sexually abusive|| situation and another manipulator who might as well have killed me. I’m so tired of it all. I wanna breathe for once but the flashbacks of my trauma are overwhelming. If you read this whole thing I’m sorry for your loss 😔 but yeah that’s my situation.
#Dang.
acoustic fossil
hollow trail
Damn thats awful and you shouldn't have to go through that. Im pretty sure if you still go to school there's social workers you can talk to, however, they're mandated reporters so if you tell them this they have to report you and potentially remove you from the environment. In your case it doesnt sound terrible tho? Theres a lot of support systems out there and I think trying to find a way out sooner is best since your situation is LITERALLY DANGEROUS. But if u js need a friend I gotchu if u want!! And I hope you find a good opportunity to get out of there keep yourself safe!!❤️
acoustic fossil
Damn thats awful and you shouldn't have to go through that. Im pretty sure if yo...
Thank you. I’m just so horrified of mandated reporting. I had a terrible experience with it and I’m so afraid of getting in trouble. I gotta just find a way to defend myself and survive in the meantime. I would love a friend though, do you want me to send a friend request?