wicked garnet
um, so, we relapsed . we stayed strong while out host's friends dumped us, while our host lost their spark, while our mental health declined significantly, but we just couldnt help ourself, could we ? we just HAD to screw up our 3 weeks of progress . we didnt do it on our thighs either, no no no, we did it on our FREAKING ARMS, OUR ARMS . WE DONT WEAR JUMPERS OR SWEATERS OR ANYTHING LONG-SLEAVE DUE TO SENSORY ISSUES. the ONLY thing that covers our wrists that we own are fingerless gloves that we wear for school (theyre an accommodation cos of our sensory issues). we have nothing to wear at home. and we know, we only have ourself to blame, this was our decision, we know, but WHYY did we DO IT (rhetorical question).
we're so freaking done with life. the only people that understood our host (or we thought understood our host) freaking kicked us away like an unwanted puppy .
we also get NO support for our DID whatsoever, so our host is hiding away while i front CONSTANTLY and im TIRED . i, personally, wanna go back to the way it was where august (our host) would front 8/10 and the rest of us would front the other 2/10 . but our friends just HADD to leave when we were all JUST getting comfortable .
Signed: Nikko (fyi, if youve seen us in any other severs that have pluralkit, we dont know how to use it, so we usually sign our messages if we remember to 😭✌️)
(i wrote this on thursday, but the servet didnt let me send it and i then kinda forgot abt it ✌️)
vagrant violet