I would shout out to help but I don't even know who to anymore. I was in a discord full of online friends that were furs and I have no family. They became my family. Next thing you know the moderator thinks I'm trying to hit on his husband and he claims in flashing people in the sfw chat..... All my friends blocked me they were so scared of him. He even found my address and tried to have me attacked.
I cried my tears, and eventually another kindred spirit came along I thought. We were to spend Christmas together as we were both going to be alone.
Plus, I just always like having somebody to actually voice chat with.... I need people to treat me kindly.... I swear I have the best of intentions and behavior. I don't know where all this toxicity came from but I just feel like Im drowning In trauma now. I casually mentioned to my little Christmas date that after hearing of his involvement with many other partners, that I at first believed we were going to be dating. And he played into the scenario and told me Ive gotten too attached and boom 3 month of calls every day gone. A whole relationship. Another year wasted and alone.
#Please just talk to me.
radiant swift
worn orbit
Hey, I am sorry you are going through this. I am unable to help as I am not a professional but I want you to know that you are amazing. From one fur to another.
radiant swift
Hey, I am sorry you are going through this. I am unable to help as I am not a pr...
Thank you but honestly. I just want my own little friendly level headed family of furs. I had NO IDEA HOW HARD THAT TRULY IS!!!
I'm sorry but I've seen the worse behavior in my life and right now it feels like 60% of people just self diagnose themselves with autism leaving those who really have it shamed because of the imposters among them using it as an excuse.
worn orbit
If you don't mind me asking, do you have autism?
radiant swift
No, I truly don't. But unfortunately some days I get these side effects from my choice in antiseizure scripts (the only one I was given) and at times it makes me sound slow, leading to the perception that I'm mentally handicapped or impaired. But but I'm just dependent...I can't help it.
radiant swift
If you don't mind me asking, do you have autism?
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worn orbit
You don't have to answer.
narrow rapids
Sorry to hear that you went through that @radiant swift But the key thing to take away from this is to try not to let it get to you. Personally especially. The Moderator spreading rumors of you doing that. Just tell me how insecure he is and how he manipulates your friends into thinking you are the problem. You aren't the problem at all.
Just work on yourself first and foremost, Forget them if you can. You got us who would do the same. But if you want a furry server, let me know, I got a bunch of friends in those types of discord servers.
But yeah. As for your Christmas date, the same thing again. If he played into the scenario (as he did) then that to me would be a red flag. Attachment, I understand where he is coming from but I also understand where you are coming from.
Attachment takes a lifetime commitment. It's a marathon, not a Sprint. 3 months is a small price to pay compared to what some have gone through.
I can say one of my patients went through 40 years of heart break in a span of a single mistake from their partners too. So 3 months may be long. But you should have the mindset of, I will just work on myself and never look back. Finding new loved ones and friends.
If you want to talk more. Please DM me
radiant swift
Sorry to hear that you went through that <@1319006378182049963> But the key thin...
I just lost my ex of 9 years. That's the only reason I hoped. And I want to be a part of this fandom but it feels like it doesn't want me.
I've been consistently accused of behavior I don't engage in when people just get sick of me. Tell some lies. Say I bothered somebody's 16 year old brother..... Or something (when it's a nsfw server and you know he shouldn't even be there.) even if he was I'm a grown man who sleeps with men.
If I'm being honest I just want people to talk to. Voice chat. Somebody at least one person there for me. Everybody is too busy yet it seems like a 3rd of this fandom literally lives life like a dream.
Yeah, I want to be loved but I understand the complexities of a relationship and I don't mess around and start saying I love you after 3 days.
Seems everybody is mostly upset I don't provide instant gratification.
narrow rapids
You don't need to provide any instant gratification. If they expect you to. You have 2 options. One is to walk away. The other one is to make a mistake and rush into things. These things take time to develop and grow. But you can't do that unless you focus on yourself first and foremost. Get into an excellent mental state and go from there.
Always remember that YOU, YOURSELF is always the Number ONE priority.