Venting ig

[sonic fern]

I feel like i'm always a burden, a bother. Even when I know i've done nothing wrong, even when there should be no reason for me to think this way.

I don't even know WHY I feel like this. I feel selfish for simple stuff like people buying me food when I can't repay them instantly.

Even now, during christmas, i'm not telling my family of anything I want whatsoever. I don't want to bother them with my desires.

I also feel like I need to apologize for everything. I don't want to be an annoyance or a bother. I don't want people to think lesser of me, I don't want people to hate me.

I try my best to be kind to everyone but I always feel like i'm not good enough

Me thinking like this is probably why my last relationship ended as it did. They probably hate my guts