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winter hornet
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i intend to ||kms|| around my birthday or maybe new year. i dont ||have a rope||, but i will go with ripped clothes or something. idk how else i would do it, but i guess i can ||walk into traffic or something.||
i hooe i censored enough

full stag
winter hornet
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maybe... mostly i just wanted to vent and let it out.

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thank you for the offer

glass cipher
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Please don't, I don't know who you are but I do know that isn't a good way out. If you need anyone to talk to or be friends with I'm happy to be your friend or just be someone you can vent to. I'm sure it'll all get better eventually

prime oxide
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hey i technically helped

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hope ur too broke to buy too many pills 🤞

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dont kiys urself cuh

vast remnant
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Hold on

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"I don't want to be here anymore. I tell the girl in the mirror. It hurts too much. 'i know.' she says back at me. I grab my note book and rip out two pages. One for mom, and one for dad. Each sentence starts with 'im sorry ' I sit on the edge of my bed, fidling with both pieces of paper in my hands. But before reaching for my p--l bottle on the edge of my nightstand, I quickly rip out another piece of paper. One more, I say to myself. I wrote to my sister, because she deserves to how much I love her, and to know that it wasn't her fault that her love wasn't enough to keep my from doing it. Before I take my last breath, I open the p--l bottle and screw the top off. Before I pour the p--ls into my hands, I rip out another piece of paper. TO: my best friend. Before taking them, I rip out 4 more pieces, then 5, then 6. Because there are so many more people I would like to say goodbye too. So many people who deserve to know it wasn't their fault. So many people who can't imagine what it would be like to have me gone. So I toss the sheets of paper on the ground. I go to sleep, and then I wake up hearing "CAN WE GO SHOPPINGGG?!?' Instead of hearing screaming because there is a body bag"So if there are letters to write... You deserve to stay

winter hornet
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thank you but i have said all that needs to be said to the people who care enough to feel anything when i am gone. they know i have been planning it for years, and i know what they think their reactions will be. i wrote plenty of notes for my prev attempts, but i think enough has been said now, far more than enough suffering has been endured. i am not a fit for this planet ruled by insane apes with massive egos and 100% scammers. fuck the human race, fuck the earth. i hope our disgusting species does the right thing and extincts ourselves before we can go interstellar, but we are too greedy, and too self obsessed to do that.

vast remnant
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I know you don't feel enough and that you don't want to be here anymore and also not want anyone to care. I understand that completely. But I have been trying to keep people from doing it, as it is my job to help people. I'm the therapist friend. I deserve to tell people to stay. You. You deserve to stay. I know it's hard, I really do. I have almost made the same mistake without knowing how many people would go mad if I were gone. It would be all my fault. Please keep going even known you don't want to. Even known you can't handle this anymore. Please. For the sake of all who know you. I beg. Don't go.

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I know how it feels. Don't give up yet

white thistle
winter hornet
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as for reasons to write, mental health is a topic humanity has only recently begun spending any time on and most still dont care and will just brush off as "selfish". so i vent into the void generally so that hopefully one day people can actually help.

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constant psychological torment and real suffering is not something people should be expected to keep living with. i found rope at the shop, didnt buy it yet, but will soon enough.

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and that is the thing, to prevent other people going insane because i did it, i must go insane? that is exactly the problem. society thinks it gets to force people to live in torture just to prevent the potential mental anguish of others. this is unacceptable.

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as for reasons they are numerous. best summed up as humans are a monster species and we are getting worse. the scammers are running free and open, everything is now a scam, the wars have only begun and ww3 is without doubt around the corner. we torture ourselves, our children, other animals, and we do it for any reason we feel like, especially for fun. we are a sick and evil species that deserves extinction.

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family means nothing, friendship means nothing, love means nothing. only greed means anything to our vapid lives all the rest is lip service to a long lost ideal

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especially the truth. it is long gone. truth is hidden behind every possible barrier, and when found it is outright denied by everyone through bad faith arguments. shit like pretending random guesses and claims based on nothing are as valid as established science with all the evidence pointing directly at it.