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[little gyro]

So I've got a dilemma, I'll be at school (or just existing) and someone will be talking to me(or ill just say something out of no where) I'll be listening but then when I respond (or what I say) it's like I'm a spectator to my own life? It's like someone else said something but it came out of my mouth and it's been happening a lot and it's really trippy, it happens in arguments as well, normally I'll be calm but then ill say something, but it's like it wasn't me?? It's as if I'm just sat there watching someone else control my body but I can see and hear all of it happening in real time. It's both scary and concerning I don't know what's going on. If anyone could help or knows what's going on or has gone through the same, let me know please.

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[cyan wren]

Do you know who that was that responded?

[little gyro]

No..

[cyan wren]

Do you have other symptoms that might be related?

[little gyro]

There are periods of memory that are just not there

As like they're just black

[cyan wren]

Do you ever notice your sense of self or basically identity shifting?

[little gyro]

Guh

[cyan wren]

That sounds kinda like dissociative amnesia

You may wanna look into OSDD-1a, although I’m no expert

[little gyro]

Uh what's that

In rather slow..

[cyan wren]

Dissociative amnesia is basically where you don’t remember something because you weren’t really there

And, at least from my experience, that basically makes you see memories as not there, black, or VERY fuzzy

OSDD-1a is when there’s present amnesia, and you basically having different states you may present at different times, with these states being semi-similar

[little gyro]

Oh

[cyan wren]

Does that sound relatable, at all?

Else, it may also be heavy dissociation, which itself is usually more a phase rather than something permanent

You do probably wanna consider looking up terms related to dissociation

[little gyro]

It sounds relatable..

[cyan wren]

How black are your memories?

Are they fully gone, no matter how you concentrate on it, or barely reachable?

[little gyro]

I can't remember them

[cyan wren]

How different are your states? Are they more just versions of you, or full-on different people?

[little gyro]

I don't know..

[cyan wren]

You might wanna start noting things down then

Of course, I’m no expert, but I do have experience with DID and OSDD-1b

[little gyro]

Ok

[covert remnant]

We feel like this often as well
A good idea is to try writing notes to yourself and such
It helps you to remember things if you can

[little gyro]

Notes as in what's happening or notes for who/what/whenever is reading them

[covert remnant]

Both

[little gyro]

Got it

[covert remnant]

But yea we have this a lot as well
It’s like we take a step back and someone else says things
So we’ve found writing it out an talking to people, asking if you seem different and talking to a therapist helps so yea

[little gyro]

Yes to everything but the therapist

[covert remnant]

It is your choice but it helps
We used to be very against it as well
Just consider it for a while at least

[little gyro]

Past experience

Bridge I'm not willing to rebuild

[covert remnant]

We can understand that yea
Take it slow and have a great time
Hopefully we helped :D

[little gyro]

Is there like free online therapy or something

I'll do that, just not face to face

Something's definitely up

I can't remember much from when I'm starting to get angry or defensive other then the feeling

[cyan wren]

From those you do remember, how does it feel like?

Like, does it feel weird and far away or anything else?

[little gyro]

It's hard to describe..

So many words and letters

Hard to read on the did research page thingy

Okay so I strained my eyes to read that

So much for 20/20 vison

I saw in the osdd1a that it includes something about time loss, loss of memory and angry self