Tw: suicide, parental abuse
Some days ago, my friend told me something that made me feel angry, I started to ignore her because I can't act like I'm fine when I'm obviously not. I only talked with her again when she told me that her parent hit her and humiliated her. He told her so many horrible things, I tried to tell her to leave her house or go to her boyfriend (she was an adult), and when we stopped talking, she never got an answer again, I ignored her, I acted childish.
I forgot about all that but then, 2 days ago (9 December), her boyfriend told me she killed herself, I got shocked, I never thought she would do it, she didn't tell anyone, she just did it. I'm feeling horrible and culprit because i acted so childish and I was an asshole with her, I wish I could go back to the past and help her and stop acting like an annoying child, what she told me wasn't something really serious, I was just being exaggerated. I miss her so much I can't stop crying, I wanted to say sorry and talk to her one last time