ive just realise what shit friends i have, holy shit

[thorn onyx]

okay, so, a few days ago i made a post saying that i cant keep my mouth shut and that i overshare (which is true) and my friends told me that me venting a bit too much was bringing their mental health down (which is fair), but we remained friends and all that jazz and they said that they all wanted to stay friends with me… That was a lie. Now, if they dont wanna be friends with me, so be it, i can be a bit much and i get too physical when i get too close to ppl (i dont mean anything by it, its just how i am). but the reason im venting about this is because one of my friends wrote a speech to tell me this, which is good on them, they get to say what they want to say, but there was another friend that was “telling” me this. See how telling is in quotation marks ? Yeah, theyre obsessed with shadow milk, and didnt take this seriously at all, as when my other friend was speaking and they said the word “lied”, the SMC obsessed friend just basically went “lie ?! shadow milk cookie mentioned ?!” AND THAT PISSED ME OFF SO FUCKING BAD, LIKE, WHAT ???? WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT WHEN WERE HAVING A SERIOUS CONVERSATION ??

[fading nacelle]

I did similar things myself (basically my boyfriend did an alt account prank on me to show how it's hard for him when I'm on the verge of... not being with him (I have very bad thing-al thoughts) and for some reason I instinctevely notified him that my meal had fallen on the floor so he got pissed & stuff) and I don't think you should be very mad at them, because for people like me it's very hard to control what we say, and your friend is probably one of them and just haven't mastered that skill yet, and can still slip up even when being in serious converstations

[nocturne edge]

If u need someone to talk to then I'm here

[uneven topaz]

Hey im here if you want someone to talk to. Ill make times work.