Okay okay okay... I overthink way too much. I know everyone overthinks, but for them, it's wether their crush likes them or not or if they did something wrong. But for me... I only overthink when it comes to people's/character's personality, why they do things, their behaviour, understanding stories, how to define me, etc. For example, the personality of Nick Wilde and why he does things. Yes, I watched the 2nd movie where he literally explains why he does not explain things seriously, but still, I still overthink about it again and again until I get a clear answer in my head despite it being explained. Normal people would probably go "Ohhh, so that's why he acts like this... ok!" and not give it a second thought, but for me, I would think about everything that he said, then reach an answer; but there's distractions and I think of something else but then I think about all the reasons why he acts that way and then I would reach the answer and then the process would repeat. After 30 minutes or so I would've reached the answer, but then maybe later I would remember Nick Wilde then start the overthinking process again even though I reached a conclusion earlier; it's like I know the character's personality but I kinda forgot but I didn't at the same time and I need a 100% clear answer of what character he is and why he does things otherwise I'm gonna keep piling all the reasons why the character acts like this then reach an answer but then pile all the reasons again for about 40 times just to clarify that the character actually acts like this.
#I honestly don't know what's wrong with me???
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I kinda think that this happened because of my childhood where I was (and kinda still) an outcast and the only thing that was my friend and kept me company was the fandoms I am in and their stories. I would always think of the stories and character's personalities since it made me less lonely and it probably made me like this. But it could also be because I was stuck in the past for 2 years, therefore always thinking about what I've been doing, my experiences, if I did this, that, yada yada. Now, my thoughts still keep me company and I like it, but not to the point where I have to keep repeatedly thinking of the same things again and again.
Also, this doesn't happen when I think about how things are made, drawing, or schoolwork. This only happens when I encounter stories, character's personalities, real people's personalities, goals, my personality, why I do things, what happened to me in the past that made me like this now... Most likely later, i'm gonna overthink on why I overthink, and why I do this. I only do this when it's about understanding people's personalities, how society lead them to this moment, etc. I feel like this is an obsession that I unconsciously have with trying to understand people. I wish I could read people easily, understand them easily, and understand situations easily, so I don't have to think about it over and over again and I just have to know once and not have myself give me an unconscious reminder all the time.
Oh days I really don't know what's happening to me, maybe I'm just normal and this is how all people act but I want my mum to have me checked at least once but she'd say no because she wouldn't believe I have something so she wouldn't check, but I still want someone to help me with this because my mind is not shutting up. Me doing this happens probably 2-5 (or more) times a day <///3
there ARE lots of reasons that can cause this. But generally queer people are more introspective and self aware than others. I personally didn't make any friends till like almost the end of middle school and the lack of socialization just made me stuck in my own head. Understanding people, their motives, why they are the way they are and how the people around them influences them, I constantly overthink these. I constantly try to find out why I do whatever I do and shallow answers just makes me wanna dive even deeper. I know that for me personally that it's a personality quirk because my daily life can still remain normal even with a hundred thoughts on why someone said a specific word instead of another one. Overthinking is pretty normal for people who are more self-aware but if it actively hampers your day to day life then a check to see if your brain is normal wouldn't hurt.