I genuinely cannot deal with these uges any longer. I have had these urges for a week now, I'm suprised I haven't relapsed yet. I get harassed EVERY FUCKING DAY. I get touched without consent, which is all adding up to stress, which is adding up to splits (we're a system) and it's also leading to these fuckass urges. We want to cut our thighs badly. They look so fucking cuttable too but we can't, we don't have any blades. And plus, we don't want our partner to get worried af about us. I just wish people would leave us alone for once in their fucking life. we're a fucking victim to harassment and even more bad stuff that i'm afraid to say. I just want everything over and done with man..
#TW: SH
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barren bane
Hey. I'm very sorry to hear that you're going through that. (I'm not sure if I should use "you" or "you all", but I'll just use "you" for now and edit it back if wanted.) I get it- it's extremely stressful and frustrating when people touch you without consent. Though, I'm hoping you don't mean sexually- if you do, that's fucking disgusting, and whoever is doing that to you is absolutely sick. As for relapsing, I know I can't stop you, but please, don't do it. Self harm is never the answer. It just makes things worse. I know from personal experience. Whatever unspoken stuff you're going through, I really am sorry for you. You're very strong for having made it this far. If you need to talk, I and many others are open to help you.
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we've relapsed..
barren bane
Oh my god, I'm so sorry to hear that.. I really hope that you'll be able to stay clean this time. But just know that doing self harm doesn't make you any less of a person/people. Maybe you could try finding some other way to relieve stress instead? I could always give some suggestions if needed.