Ive struggled with my identity my entire life. When i was younger i remember being so jealous of my brother because he got to do boy things and be a boy. In 7th grade i remember going by they/them pronouns no one ever respected. Over time its been difficult for me. Ive mostly decided i like the term genderfluid for my identity (still iffy,, being a man sounds so nice,,,) but im mostly closeted about that. But my sexuality is the problem,, Ive always called myself bi but idk anymore. Ill get these crushes on men and want to like be around them all the time but when it comes to physical affection or like marriage i feel like vomiting at the thought. I dont want to be some mans wife. Idk if its because of my gender issues, if im sapphic. Idek i've been so back and forth for years and i hate it. Ill date a man and get sad,, ill start thinking i wish you were a girl,, i get nauseous like ew im dating a man,, ill get sad again because like i just want a gf to do gf things with but i really like this guy? kinda maybe? idek
#im so tired of not knowing.
crude granite
plucky mothBOT
For the genderfluid part, probably true but just leaning towards masc, which is fully possible