I just want some friend man I feel like whenever I make a friend and everything’s going well until they eventually get tired of my rambling and stop being friends with me, rinse and fucking repeat. I just don’t know how to steer the conversation to them. And now I feel like no one will notice if I just disappeared one day. In fact I feel like some people might be kinda glad if I was gone like my brother who unfortunately has to deal with my rambling since we live together. My mom talks about my shutdowns and how it’s very difficult to get it out of me when I’ve shutdown with my therapist and I feel like my mom would’ve much preferred a normal child over me. And that’s exactly what she got with my brother, why can’t I just be fucking normal man if I was normal maybe I would have friends and maybe if my face WASNT SO FUCKING UGLY maybe people would like me. I’ve been punching myself and scratching myself really hard lately because I fucking hate myself, I’m rambling again I’ll stop now.
#I don’t even know
eager lance
pseudo patio
if you want someone to talk to, or be friends with im here!! i really dont care abt rambling or anything of that!! i actually really enjoy those people 