vagrant hawk
I've started getting urges to SH, and I sorta do, by like scratching myself really hard and stuff but idk if that counts. I've never done anything worse that that bc I just keep telling myself I dont have a reason to, bc the stuff I've been through ain't bad enough. The worse was when at the start of the year my mother tried to get into my room with a hammer - for reasons im not gonna say - while I was on the other side of the door as she hit the hammer against the door quite hard. I did try to run away during that but I wasn't thinking straight or prepared so it failed and she found me. She's not doing these things anymore, I think she just had a bad day then. But it just keeps bugging me that it's gonna happen again, and that I'm gonna get injured that time. I'm just scared, I think? I think...
unique bridge
manic kiln