violet ibex
So I'm not really sure how to start this but
Lil background on me here
I'm 13 autistic and really questioning (gender) but also just generally finding who I am and it is HARD,
3 years ago we moved to Norway because of a lot of different reasons including that I was not able to go to school bc of bullying , and that it takes me so much energy to be around ppl
Now just this year we moved back from Norway to my birth- county bc of my mum not getting work there and my lil sis didn't really like it there
Now I started high school here and we are almost halfway through the year and everyone treats me like dogsh*t
I have not been talking to my parents alot about this sometimes I try to but it is just so much
I am exhausted all the time (luck I don't get bad grades yet) but at night I can't sleep
I feel like gaming is really the only thing I do bc online I don't have to talk to ppl the same way as irl
Online I can do whatever I want to do
And I can be more myself
My mum and dad don't know that I'm looking into LGBTQ stuff (bisexual?????) and they would support me If I come out but I don't want it too look like I'm doing it for attention (a regular excuse of theirs) .
Also prob depressed I think
Been having pretty dark thoughts if u know what I mean
Just had to get this out there.
Hope anyone can help
RANDOMGAMER.
main heath