cold breach
I just feel like fucking numb, and like nothing good has happened for me in the past few months. MY parents have never once said they were proud of me, even if ive done stuff that could've been impossible for me to do. The only thing that makes them 'proud' is if i do smth church related (even if i honestly dont want to go there anymore)
They've mentally abused me, but to them its a sign of love, and "what's best for me."
Right now, death is feeling like my only chance at excape. My crippling lonlieness and constant anxiety and depression are all swirling together in my brain causing me to feel every emotion and yet none at the same time.
I just....dont know. i dont want to be alive anymore really
coral nexus