My mom has been getting panic attacks after my dad left to live abroad [I was 3], leaving me to take care of her. Our extended family doesn't really gaf about it and I'm an only child. I'm just really stressed out because I'm the only one taking care of her. Her panic attacks have recently gotten worse, she's had two seizures. I'm terrified of anything happening to her. I myself have been struggling with college and taking her to the doctor weekly. Everything has been so stressful. I feel like everything would've been better if I was never born, she blames me for him leaving and most of her issues so maybe if I wasn't here, she'd be better. The doctor said she can't go out by herself anymore and just taking a few steps makes her feel weak. I'm trying my best to handle everything but I somehow always make stuff worse. I don't think I can do this anymore, I just want to end it all but doing that would mean killing her too. I'm so tired.
#Idk if I can do this anymore
arctic schooner
swift goblet
My mom has been getting panic attacks after my dad left to live abroad [I was 3]...
Can you get help from anybody else?
Social services?
arctic schooner
Can you get help from anybody else?
No
arctic schooner
Certain
swift goblet
What country you in?
I could search and figure out if there is anything that could help
arctic schooner
She refuses to get any help, the doctors have been telling her to go to therapy for months she won't even listen to that
arctic schooner
What country you in?
Bangladesh
swift goblet
Bangladesh
Dude you still here?
arctic schooner
Therapy would probably be the best? Does she have a reason why she won’t go?
She thinks therapy is for "crazy people"
Not my words, hers
swift goblet
She thinks therapy is for "crazy people"
Oh for… that sucks
arctic schooner
Sorry I'm currently also trying to finish my maths assignment
swift goblet
Some people are just kinda old fashioned it’s awful.
Tell her that she needs it for own damn health and for your sake.
arctic schooner
Tell her that she needs it for own damn health and for your sake.
I did
Gave me the silent treatment for days
arctic schooner
Can you get like anything from a governmental power to make her do it?
We currently don't have a government
swift goblet
We currently don't have a government
That’s miserable
Yeah I can’t think of much that’ll help.
My best advice is do your best to convince her she needs therapy
arctic schooner
I'm trying